WHEN THERE IS NOTHING NEW TO SAY IT IS TIME TO MOVE ON//

i got a speeding ticket and i feel like shit

FUCK

this world!

free world.

If you are supposed to be doing homework +1 pt.

If you are slipping behind in your school work +1pt.

If you have no love life, for any reason +1pt.

If all of these things lead to a form of depression that can easily be avoided +1pt.

Fuck me. Life is so simple and complications can be easily avoided with simple acts of self discipline. Perhaps I am of the school of thought that my passions shouldn't be avoided. I do believe that a life with ups and downs is better than a life that is always at a level of mediocrity and has no risks or rewards.

My body is deteriorating...but my soul is experiencing various lows that I couldn't experience if i knew that my body was sound. Furthermore, highs that I experience when my body is fully functional will seem higher in contrast.

manipulate me

into doing exactly what you want

ugly

i had this ugly epiphany about myself. i don't bring others up; i tear them down. What's worse is that either i am drawn to people that do this as well, or they are drawn to me, as most of the people i am closest to tend to do the same thing.

not having a social life and always being on the internet gets old.

tags: why is it so hard to make friends? i hate myself and everyone else

At least you have someone who wants to use you.

You Scored as you have no friends

your friends are so horrible to you im surprised youstill call them friends! you need to make some new friends and ditch those losers before they ditch you cos with friends like that who needs enemies.

you have no friends

63%

your friends are ok

38%

youve got the perfect friends

13%

thanks for using me

my life is empty but i think i'm funny

Nobody likes being alone that much. I don’t go out of my way to make friends, that’s all. It just leads to disappointment.

*sigh

over

i've had it with all the pretentious and shallow kiddies everywhere

what the hell do you want from me?

A new hope

I'm only praying that this year will bring me the ungettable girl. I'm tired of the beautiful, uninteresting girls. I need someone to keep me on an even keel. I need marissa cooper. I need someone who will lie...just for the fun of it. I need someone who is sexy in a tall-t and classy in a dress.

fucking miss you guys

Isn't it weird

That when we come home, we have solutions for everything...but then we realize that no one will listen to them? If I was anything but a human, I'd be a fucking stick bug on the wall or a jackson chameleon.

The disappearance of the castles

America sucks a huge cock. There is no history is this damn country. Germany has castles and shit, and i'm envious of every fucking krout kid that can still imagine an adventure in a castle with deep ass magic and shit. You want to know the reason why I really do hate Harry Potter? Because I wish deep down that it was real as fuck, and i'm jealous of every fucking wizard in that book. MudBlood or Death-Eater. I wouldn't give a fuck, just give me a wand.

/\/\/\Y/\

Headbone connects to the headphones
Headphones connect to the iPhone
iPhone connected to the internet
Connected to the Google
Connected to the government

frucking anxiety attack

equals diarrhea. bugh.... body get your shit together. literally pull your shit together. gahhh.

election

It's a scene from the movie. It's an isle at the store. It's the view of a canyon. The sound of a sword.  It's an orchard of peaches. Your wife in the shower. While you wait for appointments. Or as you walk through the park.  Oh. uh oh. Erection.  You know it's not only love dear. That can flip the switch off. You know it probably should be. Maybe god fucked it up.  Oh uh oh. Erection.  It boiled up like a tower. A monument in the park. It's the cock of a rifle. A memory in the dark.  You tried to keep it a secret. But now the world's gonna know. You tried for perfection.  But then oh uh oh. erection. oh uh oh. erection.

if i were anything but human i'd be a ghost

i need someone to tell me that everything will be okay...

and that i'm not a total fuck up.

m83. too late.

I look into your eyes Diving into the ocean I look into your eyes Falling! Like a wall of stars We are ripe to fall And if you are a ghost I'll call your name again And if you are a ghost I'll call your name . . . You, always

stay away

i've got a disease thats contagious as f***

the most sensetive spots on the vaginal wall are to the lower left and lower right, and the greatest source of sensations is only about 2 inches in... I wish my life was a vagina, and someone would fuck me... Or at least give me a finger... I feeeeel nothing but emptiness.

NOT ONE REASON

I can not think of one single reason why my body is still breathing

tgftkoc

You called me after midnight,
must have been three years since we last spoke.
I slowly tried to bring back,
the image of your face from the memories so old.
I tried so hard to follow,
but didn't catch the half of what had gone wrong,
said "I don't know what I can save you from."

I asked you to come over, and within half an hour,
you were at my door.
I had never really known you,
but I realized that the one you were before,
had changed into somebody for whom
I wouldn't mind to put the kettle on.
Still I don't know what I can save you from.

dopamine depletion

year of silence

Minn besti vinur hverju sem dynur
Ég kyngi tári og anda hári"

"Illum látum, í faðmi grátum
Þegar að við hittumst
Þegar að við kyssumst

i am such a fucking asshole

i hate being like this.

consciousness is a congenital hallucination

THERES HOPELESS SMILES BRIGHTER THAN MINE

find a way to find a way.

fuck what you think about being happy.
It's a hoax.
Once you're finally happy, and reach the pinnacle,
you've only got one way to go; it's down.
So far low.
Lower than anywhere you ever were, when you once thought things were grey,
But all it really is, is you've never felt so good.
SO make me mediocre, esteem has thorn-ed my side,
I once tasted perfection, but told her it wasn't right.
Fuck all security has to offer, I'm not ready to be tied,
Im more man than one man should be, but not man enough try.
My lungs don't feel with breath now, my heart feels like a well
the source that's full of living, just enough till anger swells.
I could break through walls and crush a skull, I could fucken kill right now,
I'm just about to lose it all, but i've never quite known how.
I'm gonna prevail. Gonna bottle up this hurt.
I'm gonna find a way to find a way to avenge these words.
For now... FUCK.

my new hair cut might by hip as shit, but it ain't worth havin to feel like this.

Surgery

So, now i will compare infatuation to surgery. The woman, anesthetizes her victim with her charm and good looks, and lures him into sleepy security. Once that man has his eyes closed, she begins to string tiny iron chords around his heart...now, by this time, he is slowly becoming more and more wary of how much power she has over him. Unfortunately it is too late. He is brought back to reality all at once when she takes all of the iron chords, and with one monstrous pull, his heart is wrenched from his chest. She leaves before he can fully recover, and he is then forced to walk around the earth feeling the icy cold air on the exposed red flesh of his inner chest, in the very location his heart used to be.

Pandora's Box

I will submit to you today an argument for what was really released the day the lid on Pandora's box was lifted. I believe that it wasn't all the horrors of the world that was released, rather the catalyst of the horrors. I believe that when mankind opens their heart to love, then he opens himself to the ugliest of hatreds. If two men fall in love with one woman, there is never a good outcome, even though the best possible intentions were exhibited. One man will win, and the other man will experience a deep hurt, that will lead to hatred. Does hatred exist without love?

And with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt

I'm nothing. Let me make this right. I'm drowning and nobody's noticed. Just awhile linger and I'll be gone.

Il

The worst day ever

The end of the fire in my soul.

Today I have wrestled over 1000 words from my soul. I feel like every word that i ejaculate into my paper for my teacher extinguishes the fire of my soul more and more. I felt like every syllable written was conformation to a society which I did not approve. The worst thing is, this is only the beginning. This is my finals week. The beginning of the end.